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Butterflies
always misplacing the r

as a muse gone, yet still in my steps?
look on the back
Hate him-love them-adore them
he should remember

bright lemon-yellow sky

or butterfly as pink
as friends
they should know

following the footsteps I erased and forgot
trust him to make me go back...
and I shall
eventually

Turning my head, up and down...
But all I can see is clouds...
But damn what clouds...
fluffy;;;velvet-y

aberrant art
saving thinking of opening
no not really
will be shameful

awe-inspiring
so cliche
the words not the visual

amplyfying a bedside window
only his

silent tretment only because anything can crush it
Hush little butterfly
don't flap your wings
I'll carry you

oh my
is that where they came from?
A collection?
no
I hope not

I am the butterfly
on this board.
Pinned down with the others
we are part of a collection.
The shining pins
used to be our dreams,
but only free of them
we can fly again...

don't search
wrong keysetchain
neither one knows
divided between all of them
and a few others
You don't know who Indirion is.

What's the difference between a fish and poison?
A squiggle.
09.22.05 (2:13 pm)   [edit]

Forgetting me

They can only mope the floors and depress the buttons...
Hay, Marvin!
to it's external computer feed
hurts
falls
over me
fog
rain
pain
pitiful

they're not here
better
I'd hate to see either one of them
fuck it

moon is blurred by clouds
love a full moon
only light
black mirror

go away
tightly
I do still mean it
I am alone...
even if they're all around
Everything is a copy, of a copy, of a copy...

posing
hearing her
Dance little thing!
Let me touch you
x-es till the end

Romeo and Juliet
River. I'll be Juliet.
Then i shalt be Romeo

Thirsty
not knowledge
but salvation
peace
faith

doll, a blog is not a site
09.17.05 (7:50 pm)   [edit]

Your neighbour, what a guy...

It has officially started but it's beautiful...
Something's wrong with the system
Guess the noHW makes it bearable
my eyelids fall as usual though....

Surroundings are great
the little boy mascot I've taken up as a muse is living a life of his own and I'm glad
I'd rather not get too close
He creeps me out
He's weird
's what allthe people say
a reason I adopted him as a muse

I think it's time to let go now
He's grown up and out of my grasp
I'll adopt my Ef and Em /not that Em/
they'll be all wrong
they'll be...

oh dear
I recently understood
Killing my past killed her, not killing my present
I'm sorry, dear
I couldn't keep it
I erase my past
well
except for her
she's always there
but I can't get rid of her
she does make up mot of my life
no matter how much I hate her
she made me who I am
she saved me from everything and everyone
every time I needed saving
's why I'm still here

typing nothing
nothing useful
they never listen
hopefully it'll help
I doubt it
bye now
09.16.05 (4:29 pm)   [edit]

The death of Aestas

She died, Aestas did
she's not who you think
he knows
birth of Autumnus
yet still--
nevermind, she'll be reborn

time of the year when everything dies in flames
time of the torture
you know...

Mathematicians are always weird
hehe:
rotation
roulette
parental figure
luvemall

a final adieu and wait for usual
I feel like it's Friday.
It is Friday.

Gnight
Paint it black, Angie...
09.14.05 (1:49 pm)   [edit]

namuh+

At least one bottle?
Haha, my drunken, addicted friend
Tis not what you think

Down to the bone, covered in cow blood
I love fun faqs

coke against lazyness
hello curly-haired doll...
beats, heartbeat's up, pressure's down
seeing starts, sanctified

Lime green and light magenta...
Going to be her on the 15th
I hope she likes it
I'm sorry
I apologise
Oh my lady of the flowers...

Make up your mind for that one trip to the moon...
Haha great song[don't bother searching it's not italicized]

quotations are tilteeeeed
Revolution of the teenage apes
thinking of a black christmas... hey wait was that thing on the 22nd this moth?
shall ahve to check and find appropriate materials

what was the exclamation mark for?
singingin in the Ring in the AMorning

book is over
tears are shed
Haide is beautiful
and he is just brilliant
I have to write them
I have to draw her
what is a...?
yeah nevermind --justfickinggoogleit

I am man; yes I am
Definitely...
09.07.05 (7:26 am)   [edit]

Version 7.o

Ah I'm so tired... *yawn*
The darkness is beautiful... Yes this will be in normal writing, I feel it should be...

I feel the world slide by... I haven't seen my friends for too long... Maybe I can fix that next week? I need a physical presence... chatting is communication, it's not full socializing... I need to see my eyes in theirs, to smell their shampoo, to feel the warmth of their smile.... or maybe just two of them is who I miss.... they're so nice...
Scratch me behind the ear?
I'm more alive than ever in my life. I'm actually living, not just existing... It's exilarating, I hope school doesn't kill it...
Look at the eye flashig... heh, can't do without music...
But I'm encrypting again....

I feed on human affection. I need it... The vital question is: do i give any in return? it would be foolish for me to answer that... it's their opinion... I hope I do.
I wanna say I do
I obsessed over a few dolls and dolled a few obsessions... heh And my friends... one of them saw it... and, I daresay, liked it...
definitely
thank you...
I melt at praises and compliments...

I love pixels... I dream of them sometimes, you know?
09.01.05 (8:26 pm)   [edit]