Life is a cheap pornographic magazine
black and white on the inside
flashy cover
M.O.P.I. style
in the bookshelf it looks nice
but when you buy it
it's just for the trash
but you can't just throw it out
you've paid for it
and you still are
trash and recycle
Shift Del

No one's gonna save us now
Thanksgiving, though not here
I'm thankful
for life
for him
I regret I had to lose so much, before getting here
I miss you, darling...

sadness
ultimate desolved
aqua-death

I won't let you
they'll keep you
I hope

he's gone
razvrat
disgusting
victim

beauty is a perversion
I'm sorry, I must have misheard you, master...


Not even God...

Skulls and violets
another aberrant

a city symphony
this time mine
opposing dollie
but still my own
Kaliena

always too cheery
I envy so
I never truly believed he was like me

a make up on a beautiful day
a spiderweb or tears
or just a classic alice
or raven

I don't care anymore
it's too late for that
it's annoying anyway

music is just in the headphones
it has nothing to do with the player
just put them on
and hear it
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
it went like so...

I should go
must hunt it down
and draw slash stick
I want her back, damn you!

Fifteen to four
not even done
should I?
restless
#Sleepless

My darling darling black angel
envy him
Torture is pleasure
but so what, my darling masochistic thing?

Twisting, turning, through the never...
I want a mindfloat, but I can't form full centences
I don't have the time either way
but there is so much
yet too little
have they read my floats?
the clicking of the keys is inspiring and inprisoning
write more, more, m`as!
Rosa centifolia
gl hf finding it...

my mind is corrupted
thought of everything yet nothing invade my serenity
reason is back, for what?
She died, for something so... unsustainable. Will she be back after I lose it? I hope, I pray, I beg. It'll be over one day, love. I don't want to see you face then - contorted with anger and annoyance... Please spare me that... it would hurt so much.
You have to know, I used to take this as you do now - eternal. You know how that turned on me. I actually didn't mourn for long, but my heart was shattered. It was before that, it is after that. I think you and my magenta friend have reborn it, but how many times can it be revived like a phoenix?! I don't know. I can't believe what is happening, I can't give into it. Love is surreal. Love is surrender.
Please, surrender this on Passport control, upon leaving the country...
I wish to believe this will last forever, but I can't. I'm not dooming it from now, I'm just accepting the future... very painfully so. All that love... to hate. I can't bear the thought. I shalt forget it then.
I will try to take the gentlest care of every little piece
I will sustain this as long as I can
But I stand firm - ne na sistemi
let the anorexia kill us
sometimes I wonder if he might be a happier angel as a true angel
but egostically I answer myself I love him too much for that

If I go, I'm warning them. You can't commit suicide if everyone's watching. They'll take care of you, they'll keep you away from knives. It'll hurt you to be so, but it's the only way I can make sure you stay. Life/The show must go on...

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I'm drugged
in my way
not theirs
imagine if
heh never

I wish I could see right about now
daze is falling over
the curtain's down
water deity hates and admires me
same with people I admire
I can't stand them
usually
I envy, see.... or somewhat

Angel with the scabbed wings...
reminds me of him...
Ikarus
who cares how it is in their world, it's so in mine


Have you ever been in a 2+ floored house?
did the staircase have a turn?
then you know what i mean
especially if there were pictures on the walls
that certain feeling
The unnamed feeling, it comes alive...
it's unique

going for now
leaving
non-permanent
tap
untap

Black lotus
dead flowers
in her hand
hair by stars
moon has died
phoenix reborn
Will I be, when my time comes?

I ain't dead yet