First order of business

Happy birthday darliiiing ^_^
wishes for more blue-striped pants, more orange jackets, more orange hats and fuzzy wing-hair
My true blue msue...

next we have a torn up heart

for it I must repeat a quoatation I was recently reminded of
"The only way to get rid of a temptation is to yield to it." ~Oscar Wilde
Dream of her, not the Dreaming
you see her anyway, smell her hair, remember the scent of her perfume, see her eyes again

Love is just a druug..... 

A weekend at best, a morning to rest and an afternoon to a girl fight.

It's all gonna be over soon.

I need a gentle file or something. I want anarchy. I want chaos. I want beauty and peace...

Darling, darling thing, I miss your high-pitched voice. Gentle kurty thing. I hope you've gotten over whatever was bothering you this year: doubt, hurt... You are beautiful. Precious thing, self-doubtful. Stop wearing black. Where are all the strangely coloured jackets and the weirdly striped trousers?

Come back. Thanks, now... give a hearty laugh

Truthfulness.

Major principle. If you care abotu the person you talk to - be honest. Never hide your identity (meaning, of course, not about going under cover for CIA or something, but rather fooling the people around you about yourself on a day to day basis). Simply put - they don't deserve it.

Why would you hide from them? Not to scare or hurt them?! How are they special to you, how have they deserved for you to take care of them?! They haven't.

Being oneself is being free. Never ever ever pretend to be "something you're not." Truth frees you. Are you afraid to expose a fragile self to a cruel world? The world is cruel to you in physical ways - protect yourself physically. The world targets your mind/soul/self - it is not protected anyway, even if they don't know. Better to expose yourself - they might be compassionate(Fors fortis...) or you have the chance to strenghten yourself.

There are days when you feel so hurt you can't even force yourself to relax your arms from protecting your chest. The whole world is after you and you have to protect yourself. Sure. You can't be strong all the time. But you can try. Try to show your true self. Try not to laugh if you don't feel happy. Try not to speak if you don't feel like talking. Try not to smile if you are sad. Try to be yourself. For an hour, for a day.... forever?

Try. It's the only path to success. 

A thief caught red-handed, so to speak. What for? For art. What art?! You do not know the faintest tint of meaning that word posesses! How can you pretend to actually want to make it?! But I... NO 'but'-s! And anyway you can always take the other one! But it's not at my disposal, it's not mine-- And this one is?! How dare you take something liek this and not even tell or... or ask?! How... how can I tell you how afraid I am of asking? You will ask me back what i need it for... I cannot tell you, for I do not know myself. After that who in thei right mind would grant me my wish-ed. I was going to be denied this and i had a choice - to have it and suffer or not to have it and bee interrogated. I chose to suffer for art. I know how stupid it sounds, yes... And no... I didn't use it. You should be glad of that. I hope you like the taste of my tears as well...

Procrastinator
It's going to killy ou someday

Lost beauty on a back-door highway
Drying animal skins

Tiger ~ Puma

I want to keep you alive a little longer

Did you ever have that?!

b-i-t-c-h
In a little black dress
half-face, half-shadow
and his little vampire
in her long cloak and bashed eyes

FIGHT ME
by the music of the night of the pink crescent
midnight fist-fight

where's the grace?!
will it return? Tomorrow I revive
My True Blue Muse

I can't even remember how I saw them first
those eyes
Why do I look down now?!
He knows you
battering eyelashes, you're mine

I'm reviving you, my bride of frakenstein, my love, my passion, come BACK! 

I find it somewhat disturbing to have acids in a cough medicine... but then again I suppose there are acids in Coke as well... Though I do not recall the Coca Cola Company insisting that their products are good for one's throat.

Either way, I s'pose it doesn't matter - I don't really take it anyway, I just wash down a spoonfull. What does it take for me to admit I'm sick? Unconsciousness.

They have but one purpose - to find, control and destroy--

I won't finish the last word, or it will be obvious those were Xavier's words. Yet.. think about it.

"to find, control and destroy" humans

Tasks, work, school... Monotonous lifestyles. They destroy us. I need a change. I want to see carnage, I want to see ruins, I want to see meadows and sunshine. So what if they're opposites? I need change!

Lightbulb grenades, just watch, angel with lead wings, hear my screams, Dylan and Eric... ha! I overshadow you so badly you'd turn in your graves! Just give a chance, give me a shot... give me a melee!

They must not know, but they won't believe it either way. Just. Give. Me. A. Shot.

The gentlest creature I ever laid my eyes upon

a pair of piercing blue eyes

Exquisite in his every word, every step, every breath... When did I give up on infatuation, perfect-ness, grace?...

I miss you... When did I give up on that ultimate, unquestioanble, exilarating happiness?

I'm back 

How can you suffer so much?! I won't let you die in my hands... Just let me forget you are my future... please?