Alter ego

Truthfulness.

Major principle. If you care abotu the person you talk to - be honest. Never hide your identity (meaning, of course, not about going under cover for CIA or something, but rather fooling the people around you about yourself on a day to day basis). Simply put - they don't deserve it.

Why would you hide from them? Not to scare or hurt them?! How are they special to you, how have they deserved for you to take care of them?! They haven't.

Being oneself is being free. Never ever ever pretend to be "something you're not." Truth frees you. Are you afraid to expose a fragile self to a cruel world? The world is cruel to you in physical ways - protect yourself physically. The world targets your mind/soul/self - it is not protected anyway, even if they don't know. Better to expose yourself - they might be compassionate(Fors fortis...) or you have the chance to strenghten yourself.

There are days when you feel so hurt you can't even force yourself to relax your arms from protecting your chest. The whole world is after you and you have to protect yourself. Sure. You can't be strong all the time. But you can try. Try to show your true self. Try not to laugh if you don't feel happy. Try not to speak if you don't feel like talking. Try not to smile if you are sad. Try to be yourself. For an hour, for a day.... forever?

Try. It's the only path to success. 



posted by: (reply)
post date: 03.20.06 (6:48 pm)

I remember walking, one side of town to the other, alone one night in January... or February. It's like in an old movie from some other land; It lasted for hours.

Only streelights and the grating of gravel in pedestrian subways. I remember some trees which stood black and naked, weatherbeaten hollows of snow with sparse lumps of ice, been scraped off by the wind alone.

And on the stairs before I left, one of the girls had surprisingly given me a kiss.

Stung in the cold long after.



posted by: Crescent (reply)
post date: 03.23.06 (4:21 am)

It is indeed love that can take you out of a mezmerized state. And there is nothing more personal than a kiss.

"A stolen kiss is the sweetest" I always like to say...

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